My Dreams

Before the world comes to an end in 2012...

These are the things that I wanna achieve in the coming year: *thinking in progress.. Check back!

那些年，我们一起追的女孩 ＊＊＊《进阶版》＊＊＊

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自从刊登了这后，似乎有很多人置疑我的表白，和故事的真实性。
所以我不得不澄清一番，将故事更详细描述给大家。


谢谢你喜欢读
＝）
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好久没有来这儿了。

上次提笔键盘是好几个月前的事了，也就是我刚从纽西兰回来的时候。
这段日子也没什么有趣的东西，也就是忙着工作罢了。

。。。

昨天看了《那些年，我们一起追的女孩》，感触好多。情节很有趣，描述了作者／导演的真实故事，也诉说到了我们很多人心目中的沈佳仪。

每个学校里，无论是小学或中学，总是会有一个 女孩备受瞩目，而且也会是每个男生的心仪对象。

沈佳仪就是这个女孩。

当然，我的小学和中学时期也有这个人见人爱，车见车载的女孩。

小学时，那女孩是玮琪。
中学时，那女孩是翠雯。

以上言论纯属各人意见，若有不满，也不管我的屁事！

回想起，在小学时期，我也没有喜欢上玮琪，只是觉得她有点异人，异于常人。

我也跟她说过了 － 她是个冰山美人，比较适合从远方欣赏，不易相处，所以当时我也没想过接近她。哈哈。

"当时"，那也就是关键词吧。
事情往往就是那么悬。。。
只能说绕了一圈，如今绕到哪儿我真的也不晓得。

说道小学时我喜欢的人，有两位幸运的女生 － 美廷和佩玲。
我也不晓得是几年次喜欢上谁，只知道那时候还真的蛮好玩的。哈哈。

。。。


美廷可说是我们小学的大姐大，非常有性格。
在班上里，如果你得罪了她，以后的日子就有得你好受了。
若你不是和她站在同一阵线，你就是站在导火线，因为你将和她和她势力庞大的女党为敌。

有点恐怖，但可能我就是喜欢挑战的一个人吧。
我深深的记得有一次我去了White Sands，我还刻意用公共电话打给她。
（小学时没有手机，所以我都记得每个人家里的电话号码）
通话内容我就忘记了，只是记得我曾经那么用心的做出这个举动。。哈哈。。

后来有结果吗？
当然没有。。
。。因为我喜新厌旧，看上了刚加入我们班的女生，佩玲！

佩玲这段我就不多说了，因为好像只是自作多情，不是很喜欢这种感觉。哈哈

然后就这样小学毕业了。。


。。。


过了几年，美廷和蔚汶在一起，我也真心的祝福他们。
但是听说美廷后来移情别恋，爱上了一个貌似'古天乐'的男生。叹。
然后最近美廷终于向我们坦白，说她小学时也喜欢我，只是我一直对她很冷淡！
哈哈哈！


。。。


中学时，我是有喜欢上翠雯，只是一直隐藏在心里。
这一藏，就藏了四年。哈哈。
毕业过后，当我告诉朋友们我当时暗恋着她，竟然没有人相信我！（除了康洋，他一直都是我的150％支持者！）

中学时，其实也太幼稚了。。每天不是踢球，就是玩"魔卡"，打兵乓，或是做些无聊的事情。都这么"忙"了，哪有时间去想这么多啊！哈哈。。

我想当时应该有差不多十个男生明恋着翠雯吧，不包括我（因为我只是暗恋）。
真的没夸张，就是那么多人喜欢她。都说我喜欢挑战了！

每次和她同搭14号巴士，都很想和她多聊，但当时也太逊了，完全没有鼓起勇气做出这种事。哈哈。和她同班了2－ 3年，我想我们之间说的话不多过二十句吧！

对她最深刻的印象有两个。

第一次，在兵乓比赛后。。
那时我和宗贤对垒公教中学，对着了两个看了就不起眼的对手。
还以为是包吃的，结果竟然吃了败仗。
当时输了比赛后，超级杜爛，因为也不晓得到底是如何输掉的。

这时我看着她，她好像也在看着我。
我想可能也没有看很久，但是那时觉得好像是eternity。

第二次，是为了C.Lit 测验。
当时在班上，我是"四大天王"的其中之一。
所谓的天王，就是指我的成绩是数一数二的，从后面算起。

有一天，我在家里吃饭时，接到了她的电话。
她告诉我明天有一个测验，和该读哪些chapters.
起初我也想不是什么大事，她应该是尽好学生的责任，通知每个人。

后来和其他天王确定后，才发现她并没有通知他们，只有打给我罢了。
当时我兴奋了好久。。哈哈！

。。。

回想起，学生时代的那些年，真的很有趣，也留下了很多美好，无价的回忆。

用华文来写部落格好辛苦啊。
不是我的华文差，而是不容易用键盘按出文字来！

。。。

好的，就写到这儿吧。。。记得一定要去看这部电影 － 不要老是看好莱坞的片，也要支持华人作品啊！




*Disclaimer:
All content above are genuine, at least from my personal point of view and recollection of memories.  While highly likely that I have been misled all these years, if you happen to know the true story, I stand NOT corrected. I believe being ignorant is blissful, so don't bother correcting me.  =) 


If you happen to be mentioned above, you should be happy. 
Finally, 


谢谢你喜欢读。。。

New Zealand - Been There, Done That!

Kia Ora! (that means hello in kiwi-speak)

Kia Ora!

Long, long overdue post, i know.

Hereby offering my sincere-st apology to my readers who have been through with me thick and thin, high and low. We've travelled so far, and we will go further together, so don't leave me yet!
=)

So.... what have I been up to?

On 25th July, I boarded an SIA plane for the first time (at least in my memory), destined for NZ, alone.

It has been an experience of many firsts.

First time...

• on SIA
• travelling alone
• I paid $18 for bee hoon goreng..
• ..which was cooked with curry powder...
• ..and totally sucked

never cook bee hoon goreng with curry powder

• I dined in restaurants (not fastfood) alone
• I experienced winter!
• I had a diary (yes the real physical one)

"dear diary"

• I thought I was Superman (twice), and survived
• I wore long johns
• I understood the beauty of nature

Te Puia

Taken while on the ferry from North to South Island

• on a helicopter

It was supposed to be a 3-week trip, but i decided to come back after 2 weeks. 

Many factors contributed to that decision actually - boredom, cost, weather, travelling time, desire to work, food, and National Day. Mix and match these factors in different proportions (okay maybe discount the nation's birthday) and I found myself calling SIA to ask for the next earliest flight back home.

If I had stayed on, I'd have travelled further south (Queenstown, Franz Josef) to explore the glaciers and snow. Oh well, at least I know where I will visit the next time I go back to NZ!

It was meant to be a trip to find my 'inner peace', so naturally when I came back, the big question on everyone's mind was - Did I manage to find it? Haha

It's a tough question really!

It's easy for me to say yes, but I'd prefer to let observation speak for itself.

All I know is that the trip was definitely good.

It kept my mind away from unhappy things, and I got to know myself better too.

When you are alone overseas, you tend to do things that you won't back home.. trust me on that. Immerse yourself in a different environment, and you will begin to see things about yourself that you never knew.

I don't camwhore in Singapore

You think the current world you're living in is the world, but that can't be further from the truth. Kinda like the more you know, the more you realize you don't know.

Okay I made some interesting observations in NZ, so I'm gonna share them with you:

• NZers love kebabs. There are kebab restaurants everywhere
• They love eating ice-cream in freezing cold winter
• Vampires/Bloodsuckers moonlight as cab drivers. My 20-minute cab ride cost 80-freaking-dollars!
• Auckland is overpopulated with Chinese and Koreans
• NZers are very friendly people - they smile to strangers on the road all the time!
  (or maybe they just like me)
• Young NZers dont like asians. They make all kinds of weird gestures and sounds whenever I pass by. (I guess it's the same with many Singaporeans' unhappiness with PRCs here)
• All Blacks (their national rugby team) are like gods
• Every chinese restaurant is fully packed with customers. Regardless of how bad the food tastes. 

And I leave the most unbelievable and the best for last...

• NZers only eat salty popcorn. Seriously. (i discovered this to my horror only after I entered the cinema, happily thinking that popcorn by default should be sweet)

Can you imagine my horror when I popped the first morsel of popcorn into my mouth, expecting to savour the sweetness that is to be expected of all popcorn, only to be let down deeply?!

Clearly, someone needs to tell them that they have been getting the short end of the stick all the while. Life, and popcorn, can be so much sweeter!

Anyway, all in all, it was an enlightening trip. Next stop, im thinking of Philippines but nothing's concrete. Now, the most important thing is to focus on my work, and make my way to where I belong!

=)

Not gonna post many pictures here. If you wanna take a look, just go through my photos on Facebook!

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After such a long time out, it's not easy to pick up momentum for sure. I'm encouraged by the progress I've made so far, and I know for certain that as long as I keep moving in the same direction, I will conquer my destination! 

I know where I want to go, I know what I want, and I know what I should be doing. 

I just haven't been thinking about it hard and long enough.

Act only

Now I will. 

And you should too.

=)

Cheerios!

Updates

Coming soon i promise!

im leaving on a jetplane...

... and will be back on Aug 15th!

My flight is in a few hours' time, and i cant really describe how i feel now.

Just gonna have an open mind, and take in whatever I get from this trip.

I want this trip to clear away all the upsetting memories, make myself get out of this rut, and I will come back a rejuvenated, refreshed and much better Swee!

NZ, here I come!

Pig-tures

Yes, i've been having lots of fun playing with this Fat Booth app.
Go download it, it's cool!

Anyway, this is just a preview.
I will soon post them all on Facebook. =)
I probably wont tag anyone, but if their auto-tagging feature still manages to identify you, then tough luck!

Persist, and you prevail

"Nothing in the world can take the place of Persistence.

Talent will not; nothing is more common than unsuccessful men with talent.
Genius will not; unrewarded genius is almost a proverb.
Education will not; the world is full of educated derelicts.

Persistence and determination alone are omnipotent.
The slogan 'Press On' has solved and always will solve the problems of the human race."

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So I say... in all times of adversity, keep your chin up and press on!

放开了

很多的问题与不解，我很想去追问。
但若真相是残酷的，又有何助于事呢？
挣扎了很久，始终还是选择了放开。

我很珍惜，但只都是我单方面的想法。
我以为我很懂你，其实我是最无知的。
我不喜欢做工具，也做到累了。
这感觉很糟，但我会复原的。

希望我确实有带给你快乐过。

这次我真的我放手了。。。

Just let go. Just be

Thanks Angie.

truth hurts.

If things are what I think they are, then i guess it's the end of a long running episode.

im not upset because of the change in status.

im just very disappointed because of whatever was said and done.

a simple truth and a nip in the bud - that would be fine totally.
not diplomacy and attempting not to ruin the delicate balance.

"My friend"


That wasn't how i expected the lights to be switched off.
I would rather you tell me directly.

Sigh.

Nice guys finish last.

I will be back.

如果你也听说

I can read minds...

Or at least the birthday wishes that people have!

Example #1
I was with Jasmine and I had just drove out of the carpark at The Cathay.

Jasmine (after seeing a cab with an advertisement of The Lion King):
Hey I wanna watch the lion king but I heard from my sis that it has ended already.. 

Me:
Oh really? Hmmm.. 
(I had already bought tix for the lion king that evening, but it was unknown to her obviously)

Jasmine:
Yea... *Pouts*


I then revealed it to her over dinner. Like to think that she was rather thrilled!


Example #2
I was having an imperial dinner with xiuxiu at Sushi Tei (imperial because the bill came up to $110 for the 2 of us) to celebrate her birthday.

Halfway through the dinner, she suddenly told me that she wants to buy a luggage. I swear I nearly choked on my tamago sushi when I heard that. Just a few hours back, I had went shopping for her present and got her the exact gift she wanted - a samsonite luggage!

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I think I should be a party planner, or at least for birthdays. =)

順其自然

 我試著讓生活變得清淡

 對幸福或寂寞順其自然 

偶爾小小孤單 

偶爾小小浪漫

 不怕大喜大悲那麼難負擔 

不想再背負太多期盼

 對好奇或關心順其自然

 只是那點不安

 只是那種辛酸 

總會忽然擴散

讓心又累又茫然 (期望有人陪伴)

More than greenbacks

Sometimes, motivation isn't best served in the form of money.

To quote Bill Gates,

'I never took a day off in my twenties. Not one. And I'm still fanatical, but now I'm a little less fanatical'

If you're interested, here's the entire Bill Gates interview.

Money can motivate you quite a bit, but without passion, you won't be able to go far.
So that explains why we need rewards!

Taking stock

I can't remember the last time I put in so much effort in doing something.
2 weeks of preparation and toil, for an emotional day of joy and tears.
"Delivering Happiness" was the theme, and I'd like to think I managed to do that.

I dont know how I got myself so deeply entrenched.
很多时候，我觉得我只是个在绕圈子的过客。
It doesn't matter how much mileage I clock, I am ultimately still only a by-passer.

FUCK THIS BLOG IS GETTING EMO

Flying off in a day

Not to everyone's beloved NZ, but to Guangzhou.

I feel like i have so many things undone; i'm not looking forward to the trip at all.
Haven't packed, haven't planned anything, I have no inkling of what's the itinerary gonna be like at all.
Guess I'll leave it to my bro and Belinda to work things out.
I'll just be a happy camper.

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Been busy with other stuff for the past few days, and I reckon it will remain this way till next week.
Something that I haven't done for such a long time.. The feeling is... indescribable.
And when I look back on past materials, every little thing evokes a totally different emotion.
Now... it just feels surreal.

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Okay enough of rubbish.
I'll be back when i have more stuff to talk about.
I've been pretty devoid of emotions lately, which explains the lack of posts as well.

Bye!

好朋友

我想。。。
还是做好朋友最好吧。。。

少了期望，少了寄托，少了尴尬。

我不会离开，
也不会抛弃，
但也不会待在这里，
裹住不前。

依然很疼你，
依旧会疼你，
只是做出心中的调整罢了。

：）

make or break

The vibes I get tell me it will be more break than make.

偏见

Ch said this is for me..
Thanks.

我手心的温度渐渐在离开
你口中的谎言慢慢能明白
早知求也求不回来
即使最后只剩残骸
心不会更改没有祝福我明白
看凋零的玫瑰在静静发呆
朋友对我责怪要我放得开
固执对我是种虐待
越爱得深越难抛开
爱是种偏见如果可以再重来
我明白爱情已经超载
爱的完全坏了姿态
你冷眼看待就像是种伤害
我好像站在无人山崖
全世界都抛在外
明知你不再回来
我早已明白

Maxed Out

I.

I know.

I know you know.

I think i know you know.

I don't think you know.

I don't know.

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You.

You know.

You know I know.

You don't think you know.

You don't want to know.

You don't know.

Nobody knows.

I've maxed out.

Feelings

I'm biased,
and I want to be, for a reason.

I'm jealous,
and I can't help it, for a reason.

I'm happy,
and I'm happy for a reason.

Reason reason reason

The customer is NOT always right

Angry email from customer:

Reply from our PR expert, Danny:

How the reply would look like if I was the one writing it:

The fact that you're a customer doesn't make you Queen. 

We have too many uneducated, uncouth consumers in our society. 

And if you're buying items at half the price discounted already, I really don't know why you are making such a big ruckus and sounding like we cheated you of your youth and money. 

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And that is why I hire a VA for my customer service - to refrain me from replying emails.

I was actually tempted to reply this email when Danny asked me to, but I think I should be glad I didn't. 

My Way

Can't seem to get tired of this song.
真的是歌神...

His concert in Aug can't come fast enough!
=)

=)))

I think i'll give her whatever she wants

Starting afresh

Bye bye student life.

Hello world.

Schweet

My bro and Belinda.

To commemorate 5 years of being together, they hired a photographer for an outdoor photoshoot.

I think this is really nice.
Better than all the cards and arts and crafts that they have been giving to each other throughout all these years! (OOPS dont kill me).

Here's to countless 5 years ahead for the 2 of them!

=)

查无此人

九月七号星期天
失去连络的第十七天
我开始收拾你的信件
贴上查无此人的标签
我走到你的后巷
看着你没有灯光的窗
蒙上重重灰尘的门把
和没有留言的留言版
不是说好不聚不散
怎麽说了都不算
如果你已经不想再谈
也该留些话划上句点
爱情不是谁欠谁还
只是该说了就算
当然你也可以这样散
但是别让我在街上一个人站
多孤单

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Not emo, just a nice song.

Natural nature

I will be natural.
And perhaps ride on nature's course.

Erase any expectations; back to basics.

Yawns. I'm tired.

Out.

What really matters

Gripe not about what the ruling party can't do for you, BUT what the opposition party can do for you. 

This is not meant to be a pro-any-party entry, if you could allow me to state my disclaimer first.

The coming GE will be the first time that I'm allowed to cast my confidential vote. All my life, I've never paid much, if any, attention to previous elections. I never understood the importance or significance of it.

Am I Apathetic? Yes, and I won't try to mask the fact that I do not know nor care much about politics.

But lately, I've been pretty disturbed by the countless political opinions being bandied about on Facebook. It's like my Facebook News Feed has been redrawn into a GRC, and a dozen of my friends are now candidates running for the election.

I'm almost tempted to ask which opposition parties they are representing, judging from how strongly they are engaging in propaganda targeted at the PAP.

It's like elitism - you are an ignorant apathetic fool, unless (1) you chip in with your anti-PAP remark, or (2) you show how impressed and motivated you are by the opposition's rallying cries.

I could go on and on, but I don't want this to be a political battleground so I won't carry on much further.

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I've always maintained that it's easiest to campaign for change.

The idea of "Change" is always welcome to the dissatisfied, and there will always be a fair number of people who are discontented.

There isn't a one-size-fits-all policy and never will there be one, because that is simply not possible. We all come from different backgrounds - culturally, economically, racially, behaviorally.

Square pegs won't fit well in round holes, but it will be justified as long as there are more square holes than round ones. It's easy to gripe/bitch about the policies that do not benefit you, but the individual perspective becomes insignificant when the onus is on bringing the country forward.

When I see so many of my friends comment that they will vote for the opposition, regardless of who the opposition is and what they are capable of delivering, I find that pretty disturbing.

Perhaps competence could turn out to be the undoing for the ruling party. When perfection/comfort is taken for granted by everyone, even the slightest mistakes cannot be afforded.

What an exciting week ahead. =)

And here are some posters to lighten the atmosphere...