Leap day

Do you only grow a year older once every four years if your birthday falls on a leap day?

Come to think of it, today sounds like a good day to get down to doing something, if you have been planning for it for a long time.

Marriage?
Going into a relationship?

You only have to get a gift once every four years! For the ladies, it sure sounds distasteful, but for many guys out there, I bet this is the day you have been waiting for.

I dont know but I can't think of other ideas for this special day. I'm not that scheming anyway. Haha.


If you are a leap day baby, here's wishing you a very happy birthday! Cherish it while it lasts!

Story

The reason for change came, along with its fair share of detractors, critics and skeptics. It was a very hard one, but he did it all the same.

It was hard, for he had to hurt someone really bad.
Hard, for no one else seemed to think alike.
Hard, for it could mean burning a beautiful bridge built.
Hard, for leaving a familiar path for an unknown one.
Hard, for so many known and obvious reasons, but it was never as hard as he had thought it would be.

Where he used to find company, he could no longer find it now. He knows he did not handle it well, and he cannot see past himself for who else but to blame.

Where Gamma thought he could seek company, it cannot be found either. Maybe it was unilateral, and he never did read the signs as well as the other. The aloofness, indifference made everything before seem like a short-lived dream.

He had been told of the consequences, but he held his belief, steadfastly. Or naively, as how many others felt.


He has had no regrets. What he has....

is one half of memories...

.. one half of doubts...

..and countless thoughts that he has been trying to put down.


He will be alright, he just needs time.

And since you like this song so much, this is for you..


Sometimes when we touch

You ask me if I love you
And I choke on my reply
I'd rather hurt you honestly
Than mislead you with a lie
And who am I to judge you
On what you say or do?
I'm only just beginning to see the real you

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

Romance and all its strategy
Leaves me battling with my pride
But through the insecurity
Some tenderness survives
I'm just another writer
Still trapped within my truth
A hesitant prize fighter
Still trapped within my youth

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

At times I'd like to break you
And drive you to your knees
At times I'd like to break through
And hold you endlessly

At times I understand you
And I know how hard you've tried
I've watched while love commands you
And I've watched love pass you by

At times I think we're drifters
Still searching for a friend
A brother or a sister
But then the passion flares again

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

Jogging

It's time to sweep the dust off my running shoes and get back on the jogging track again..

Nowadays, it feels so weird to knock off while the sun is still out. Not that I'm complaining though.

Time to leave the office!

I feel like playing table tennis. Hmmmmm

Of Alpha females and Beta males...

In America research shows successful young women are hiding their accomplishments for fear that their academic achievements and financial kudos will scare off potential suitors.

And it is no different here. Researchers from Aberdeen, Bristol, Edinburgh and Glasgow universities discovered that high-IQ women saw marriage prospects fall dramatically, but men with high IQs had little trouble finding a mate.

They found that for each 16-point rise in a woman’s IQ, her marriage prospects declined by 40%, but the man’s chances of marriage increased by 35% with each rise.

The widespread view is that accomplished women are at a disadvantage in the marriage market because men start out by saying they want a strong, powerful woman and then end up running off with the secretary.

Read: Modern women want a Beta male


Chanced upon this article as I was Googling for beta males. Personally, I think it makes sense. Men are usually too egoistic to find a other half who is superior.

Me? I think intelligent and witty women have quite a lot of appeal. But not one who makes me look stupid, that is.

Ladies, let yourself be heard!

I sometimes often wonder if it's just me or is it what I really think it is...

And I need to slap myself out of it everytime.

I need distraction..

So I have registered for the Bachelor of Management (UOM) course. Went down to SIM last Fri and it sure was a long and arduous journey back. Some company along the way would have eased the loneliness, but all the guys seem like they are too busy with their own stuff.

Managed to meet Gb and Terence for dinner at SIM that night though. It's the first time that I have seen the both of them really mugging and even looking worried for their paper the following day, so I think I'm actually glad for them.

Well, they were not the most hardworking people back in Poly days so it was pretty refreshing to see such a radical change in them. But then again, we hung out very often back in Poly so yeah, I probably wasn't that diligent as well. Haha.

It was weird that the topics over dinner revolved all around the subjects they are taking. And they two seemed really troubled over this "Intro to Economics" paper that they would be taking the next day. Well, that module really sounds deceptively easy to me. Haha. Hmmm, I think i'm looking forward to studying.

I have been receiving comments about which modules are difficult, which course is difficult to excel in, but somehow, they are not my concerns at this point of time. Not that I think I would breeze through them, but I see no point in taking the easy route. I'm not thinking about results and how I would fare, but more of what I would learn from the whole process.

Well, I hope I wouldn't be blogging and sulking about my modules and end up looking stupid after what I just typed!

Anyway, I have fallen sick again.. To which the boss heard my voice and had to reiterate that I cannot afford to fall sick during this 'critical' period. So much for employee welfare.. Yawns...

Constant late nights have taken its toll and its no coincidence that it was the return of the Champions League games last week too. Was watching the League Cup Final yesterday night and I'm so glad that Tottenham won! Chelsea was totally outplayed and the only blot on an otherwise good night was that D.Drogba scored. Andrew if you are reading this, here goes...

He's disgustingly good. (That description doesnt fit Adebayor now as he actually looks decent enough after his latest haircut)


Anyway, PostSecret has been updated!

French chemists on Wednesday announced they had created rubber that heals itself after it has been cut, a breakthrough that could lead to clothes that self-mend if torn and toys that repair themselves if damaged by a tot.

The molecular concoction -- described by other scientists as having "a touch of magic about it" -- can self-heal at room temperature in around 15 minutes by simply pressing the damaged pieces together, they report in the British weekly science journal Nature.
Read more here


Sounds to me that many cobblers and seamstresses are gonna be out of jobs if this really turns out well!

Choosing between..

The Devil and the Deep Blue Sea?

or...

A rock and a hard place?

or..

the fish and the bear paw?


I have a friend who I think is caught in quite a welcome headache, and yet very potentially tricky decision. Let's call him Lucky.

Background:
Lucky had just fallen out of love and is now focusing his time and attention on his school work. He is very much the alpha male and the fact that he has put on a few kilos but is yet still highly sought after, speaks volumes about his charm.

Situation:
He likes these 2 girls and he's now torn between choosing either of them. Let's call the 2 girls Bubbly, and Pretty.

Lead Actress 1 (Bubbly):
Bubbly, as the name suggests, is erm... very bubbly. She's a natural when it comes to cracking jokes and has this innate ability to make Lucky always tickled when in her company.

She's thoughtful, sweet, playful, naive, and very much a little girl in his eyes. Days with her hardly go by with a frown and its this comfort that is drawing him so much to her. She prepares food for Lucky's pet, makes things for him, and cheers him up when he is down.

Lucky and Bubbly are like two peas in a pod, physically and characteriscally. The fact she is well liked by Lucky's mum could be attributed to the resemblance to her son too. Now, parental pressure is paramount, at least that's the impression he gives me.

The one thing that is holding Lucky back is that Bubbly is too much alike to his lost love not too long ago. Friends have expressed shock at their uncanny resemblance. Lucky is of the same opinion too, although he insists that she is bubbli-er.

He has this fear that if he gets into a relationship with her, it would end up the same way as the previous one. He knows that alikeness could well turn out to be a double edged sword; but is unsure whether it would be friendlier, or suicidal..


Lead Actress 2 (Pretty):
She's the girl who turns heads on the street, and the girl who sets his heart fluttering and racing. What Bubbly lacks in the looks department (which isn't really the case), Pretty more than makes up for it.

She's the girl next door, well mannered, and has had a good upbringing. In short, she's the girl who every guy would love to bring home to.

As much as she sounds like the perfect girl, she's simply unfathomable. Docile one moment, unreasonable the next. Lucky is so often left exasperated and guessing what is on her mind. Conversations with her fluctuate between the sweetest and the most hurting. With her, he never knows what is he gonna get.

Maybe its this aura of invincibility and her playing hard to get that makes Lucky even more determined. She is a girl who he regards as oh so special and no one else comes close to that.

Comparatively, Lucky and Pretty are like chalk and cheese. Lucky is outgoing, Pretty is reserved. Lucky is horizontally challenged, Pretty is more likely to end up anorexic. It is precisely their contrasting characters that always have him thinking what it would be like if they do get together.


So, what do you all think of the two girls and the guy? Who would you choose and why?


Disclaimer: The above story is entirely not related to the owner of this blog, and even if some parts sound eerily suspicious, it is not.

Reading all the hypotheses by Andrew makes me feel like blogging about topics too. But, I'm so caught up in work that I don't have time for that now. Now, before the shit hits the fan, I gotta try to clear it up. The boss has set a deadline till this Wed so I am so looking forward to life after that.

Anyway, I should be registering for University of Manchester Management by this Sat. Should have been so easy a decision right from the start eh? What other choice could I have taken other than my beloved Manchester? haha.

I need to exercise! Been eons since my last swim and weeks since my last workout. Lethargy seems to have taken the driving seat since the start of the year and everything else seems to have taken a backseat. Looking for a jogging, swimming and/or cycling partner. Interested applicants, please leave your name in the comments section.

And as the night falls, here we go again......

Valentine's Day..not

At least not for me that is..

Come to think of it, it has been a while since I last spent Valentine's Day alone. 4 years to be exact. Well, when I saw my brother busy preparing for his girlfriend's gift and surprise, I can't really describe the feeling that I had at that point of time.

Relief? Not
Misery? Slight
Lost? Pretty

And I actually remember telling someone that I feel good not having to worry about planning for V Day this year. Now as I recall, I think I didnt mean what I said.

I think I have always liked planning for surprises and events, and sometimes, these are the occasions that keep the love going strong and eventful. Somehow, it doesn't feel right having so much time not planning for anything this time round.

So when everyone should be out dining with his/her lovely other half, here I am at my office desk blogging my loneliness away.

I read the poem I had written in the past, and I don't think I can write another of that now. The ones written in the past, they really flowed right from the heart. To write one now, it would be so superficial, and unfeeling. I don't know what would time bring, but I hope it does bring out the best for either of us, fruitful or not.

Elation is a distant memory now,
Joy a brief passer-by,
Gloom a frequent visitor and,
Devoid of emotions, a constant thorn.


Happy Valentine's Day to all couples out there and may bliss follow you all eternally!

Just for the special day tomorrow, here's a lovely song for you...


One Boy, One Girl

He finally gave in to his friend's girlfriend
When she said "there's someone you should meet"
At a crowded restaurant way cross town,
He waited impatiently
When she walked in, their eyes met,
And they both stared
Right there and then,
Everyone else disappeared, but

Chorus

One boy, one girl,
Two hearts beating wildly,
To put it mildly, it was love at first sight.
He smiled, she smiled, and they knew right away
This was the day they'd been waiting for all their lives.
For a moment the whole world
Revolved around one boy, and one girl

In no time at all, they were standing there
In the front of a little church
Among their friends and family,
Repeating those sacred words.
The preacher said "son, kiss your bride"
And he raised her veil
Like the night they met,
Time just stood still, for

Chorus

He was holding her hand when the doctor looked up and grinned,
"Congratulations, twins"

One boy, one girl
Two hearts beating wildly
To put it mildly, it was love at first sight.
He smiled, she smiled, and they knew right away
This was the day they'd been waiting for all their lives,
And for a moment the whole world,
Revolved around one boy, and one girl

Deciding..

between a few courses currently.

1. UOL Banking & Finance
2. UOL Management
3. UOM Management
4. UOL Econs & Finance
5. UOL Econs & Management

Will probably make a trip to SIM this saturday to find out more stuff. Wouldnt mind comments from anybody out there, in fact, I implore you to do so!

At the Beginning

We were strangers, starting out on a journey
Never dreaming, what we’d have to go through
Now here we are, I’m suddenly standing
At the beginning with you

No one told me I was going to find you
Unexpected, what you did to my heart
When I lost hope, you were there to remind me
This is the start

And life is a road that I wanna keep going
Love is a river, I wanna keep flowing
Life is a road, now and forever, wonderful journey
I’ll be there when the world stops turning
I’ll be there when the storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

We were strangers on a crazy adventure
Never dreaming, how our dreams would come true
Now here we stand, unafraid of the future
At the beginning with you

And life is a road that I wanna keep going
Love is a river, I wanna keep flowing
Life is a road, now and forever, wonderful journey
I’ll be there when the world stops turning
I’ll be there when the storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

Knew there was somebody, somewhere
A new love in the dark
Now I know my dream will live on
I’ve been waiting so long
Nothing’s gonna tear us apart

And life is a road that I wanna keep going
Love is a river, I wanna keep flowing
Life is a road, now and forever, wonderful journey
I’ll be there when the world stops turning
I’ll be there when the storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

Yeah

Life is a road that I wanna keep going on
Love is a river, I wanna keep going

Starting out on a journey

Life is a road that I wanna keep going
Love is a river, I wanna keep flowing
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

The Kite Runner

Anyone wants to watch that? Or has read the book before? I think i'll go catch the movie this week.

Some random photos...

Gambling, gambling and more gambling

That's what CNY is all about nowadays. In the 3 days gone by so far, I have played mahjong, blackjack, and dai dee for every single day and night. Actually, I think i'm kinda tired of all this. It's fun when everyone makes merry and laughs at the antics the jokers come up with, but it feels so empty when everything ends. I dont mind losing, not that I bet a lot anyway. I think i'm in it for the fun, and the time spent with everyone else.

I like it especially when my cousins come up to me and they want to help me play my cards. I will just pass them the cards and they will place it on the table. And kids being kids, they will always want attention. When one cosies up to me, the other will follow suit right away. So, I will always have one on each side of my lap. Haha. And, whenever I do win some money, which isn't very often, I will give them a share of it. It makes losing worthwhile, when you see the smiles on their faces. Especially sweet when you see the expressions on their face change from a downward arch to a wide toothed grin. I wouldnt mind spending the whole day with them.

My cousins are so cute, I will never get sick of them. And they love it when I carry them high up in the air. Probably cos I'm the tallest in the family, they always look to me when they wanna be carried. Haha.

When the laughter dies down and the dust settles, its back to the drawing board and pondering over what happened. I'd like to think that I hadn't changed, and I do not know what hit me out of the blue. Maybe it was time to do that, or maybe it was time that caused all that. As always, the questions are always confounded with more questions.

---

我爱的人


我知道故事不会太曲折
我总会遇见一个 什么人
陪我过没有了她的人生
成家立业之类的等等

她做了她觉得对的选择
我只好祝福她 真的对了
爱不到我最想要爱的人
谁还能要我怎样呢

我爱的人 不是我的爱人
她心里每一寸 都属于另一个人
她真幸福 幸福得真残忍
让我又爱又恨 她的爱怎么那么深

我爱的人 她已有了爱人
从他们的眼神 说明了我不可能
每当听见 她或他说「我们」
就像听见爱情 永恒的嘲笑声

她做了她觉得对的选择
我只好祝福她 真的对了
爱不到我最想要爱的人
谁还能要我怎样呢

我爱的人 不是我的爱人
她心里每一寸 都属于另一个人
她真幸福 幸福得真残忍
让我又爱又恨 她的爱怎么那么深

我爱的人 她已有了爱人
从他们的眼神 说明了我不可能
每当听见 她或他说「我们」
就像听见爱情 永恒的嘲笑声

每当听见 她或他说「我们」
就像听见爱情 永恒的嘲笑声

27 dresses

I thought this would be a typical chick flick and probably a movie that guys wouldnt like. Well, I caught it over the weekend, and surprisingly, I liked it pretty much.

The storyline of the movie is about this girl Jane who has been a big big fan of weddings since she was a young girl. She likes to attend weddings so much, she has been a bridesmaid for a whopping 27 times, hence the movie title. So the story revolves around how she goes around trying to be the perfect bridesmaid, but not realising that she has been neglecting her own love life.

Then, came along this writer from a newspaper, Kevin, who is the complete opposite of Jane. He is a total cynic when it comes to weddings as his prospective bride left him for his best friend on their wedding day. So, as you might have guessed, Jane and Michael had their fair share of opinions and squabbles as they then eventually fell in love with each other. Sounds cliched enough but I thought the plot was quite novel for me.

Is it true that the bridesmaid always gets the ugly dresses so that they wont outshine the bride? I've thought of that question way before this movie so now I think maybe its true after all. Haha. In the movie, apparently all of Jane's dresses were never that glamourous and were in fact hilarious. Sounds like its better to be the best man already!

I dont wanna go into too much details so you ought to catch it for yourself. I think many things went through my mind as I was watching that. That is another story for another day so, suppress, repress and suppress again.

Hope that adage, "Always a bridesmaid, never a bride" does not come true for all of us anyway!

Look...

...at the URL bar and you should see an image of a box of popcorn beside my URL. See that?

So thats some food for thought for you guys while im too busy to blog about all what I wanna say. Haha. Hopefully I will find enough time to come back before the end of CNY!

If not,


HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE!! GONG XI FA CAI!!!

My reply to the previous post..

Drew,

I totally understand your agony and where are you coming from. As a Man Utd fan since 11, I have not experienced the same kind of trauma ever. We have swept through the seasons and has been the only dominant force for the past decade.

We have, in short, overtaken your club's dominance. While Man Utd has had its dogdy transfers, it sometimes does console me when I see the transfers that goes on at Merseyside.

I always felt that the liverpool players of old were more close to the heart, players like McMananaman, Fowler, Berger, Heggem (best right back to rival G.Neville ever), Redknapp, McAllister, and of course, Dudek (Wobbly legs). Even though Man U and Liverpool are such great rivals, I have never thought much of that rivalry. I always see Liverpool as a 'friendly' club. They are never arrogant, and they are much more endearing than the other two London clubs.

I understand you are disillusioned, and it's rightly that you feel so too. I also know that at this point of time, there can only be one other person who you can seek solace from.

The only one and surviving Magpies fan in our midst...

Mr Wang Kang Yang


This guy has had tremendous patience and endeavour, the way he's had to deal with the ridicule and abysmal performances of his club in recent years. To say Man Utd or Liverpool has had bad signings, that would be absolute disrespect to Newcastle.

Jean Alain Boumsong
Stephane Guivarch (World Cup Winner)
Marcelino (9m pounds defender)
Titus Bramble (touted as the next big thing)
Joey Barton (Behind bars, last i heard)
Nicky Butt (Crap)
Alan Smith (Crap)


Anyone who's in the right frame of mind would never have sanctioned the merging of the last 3 players. I wouldnt be surprised if they killed each other one day!


So Drew, my point is to be patient. It will pay off I believe, if you are willing to wait any decade or so.

If not, I welcome you with open arms to the ever inviting and endearing Red Devils Bandwagon. Where we brothers can rejoice and unite. Mr Wang, dont worry, I have not forgotten you. You are just as welcome too.


Swee. =)

By a disillusioned Liverpool fan..

ever since i was 10...i've supported the merseyside reds... also known as liverpool.

the once great club is obviously in shambles now....

from the way we play to how the club is managed... the business front of it all and the backroom staff... everything's just bad... depressing.

so while the hooha over the US owners created an easy scapegoat... the smokescreen has finally cleared up..

it aint the owners.. its the club itself. sick to the core. rubbish. delusional.
isit rafa? maybe.
isit the players? possibly.

all i can say is...
its been a long time.. 12 years supporting liverpool. and there were a few highs (well actually just one--that nite in istanbul) and too many lows...

but i think this club has inflicted so much pain and suffering that i can no longer stay onboard this sinking ship.

i hereby relinquish my liverpool fandom and promise to stay neutral till the end of the current season.
[well..at the bottom of my broken heart, i'd reserve a soft spot for wigan (heskey) and maybe pompey.]

so here's to the people who made a difference...
roy evans...ian rush...steve mcmanaman...neil ruddock...phil babb..
gerrard houllier...robbie fowler...gary mcallister...michael owen...veggard heggem...hyypia...
benitez...dudek...jamie carragher...gerrard...luis garcia...baros...cisse...mascherano
torres...

it was great knowing u guys. thanks for all the memories.. hope we'll meet one day...


--depressed ex-liverpool fan

Drained

Left the office yesterday at 930 pm and met the guys for mahjong at 1030pm. Played till 5am and now im back in the office working again.

I'm so tired, I feel breathless. When is everything going to take a turn for the better and relieve me from this perpetual agonizing world that im in at the moment? CNY cant come earlier and i'm really just waiting for that 4 day break where I can break myself away from work and at long last sit down and spend some time with my family.

Relish the times when I meet up with people, at least i am genuinely happy when in their company. Will be meeting DZ, Andrew and Alvin for Winning Eleven showdown later. Sounds childish but its really a guy's game. Haha. Looking forward to that much.

Anyway, I've started reading...24 pages! haha. Bought a book at MPH the other day while shopping for stuff. Sadie, by Jane Elliott. Been too busy to read it much and have only been able to read it on the train every now and then. Normally when I reach home, I wouldnt be able to last much longer after my shower. Guess that's what happens when you sit in front of the computer for 39 hours in 3 days.

Okay, back to work now!